Russian Roulette

Sitting across from you were at a stand still again, 

in this game there only chances and no clear win.

With a kiss alone, 

we have complicated the simplicity 

of the beauty i found in you.

the trust misplaced in my heart
is shattered. 

It was never really there never

never all together or full sure about anything

almost as bad as my mind
but with you it's been renewed.

Still sitting staring breathing hoping 

& dreaming there was an easier to play Russian Roulette...
Hating you is easy, 

Loving you is stupid, 

& letting go is the single hardest & most impossible
thing i cant seem to do.
With only one bullet , you've continuously shot me dead.

Only difference it's me you and my heart in this room.

my mind is distant from the words my heart speak,

my actions are deeply rooted to the good nature of my soul
But as i spin the barrel & the bullet is released
milliseconds never seemed so slow,
and as i thought ive finally won

you simply turned the gun to me...