Synergy

Synergy
As your Energy traces through my veins
Complacent in a daze stuck in your ways
Somehow, I could stare at you for days
Make your mouth smile in different ways
yet and still you'd lie to my face.

If only you understood how much you fucking meant
In this universe of ours
I've dissected time trying to reprieve the ideas and thoughts you’ve had of me.
 I done cried trying to force myself to be everything I could never be

But even without me you try to duplicate my Energy
See our synergy our has been disrupted

And I am just stuck kid

How could you Bring someone else around our children how would you explain to them these things that you've done can you even contemplate how is feels to lose our first son does your mind have time to know postpartum or am I being blamed for not wanting to be another baby mama to start the vicious cycle again? Again am I less than a woman because I don't want to be yours anymore? I lost so much but I gained much more my grandfather was right all along. I always knew you didn't deserve me